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dawnstar and I went to our first RWCC rehearsal Tuesday night. The atmosphere was laid-back, upbeat, and friendly. The music was bouncy and fun. I'm glad I found the Яйца to go! Now, to maintain the motivation and keep on keeping on...

Yesterday, it was refreshing to have positive stuff to talk about at my therapy appointment. I realized, in the course of talking to her, that I am now most definitely in an upswing. The conversations mechanchaos and I have been having about polyamory, relationships, wants, needs, and interests have helped so much. They have strengthened and deepened our communication, helped our sex life, and seem to be giving us more self-confidence as well. I talked about them with my therapist. Thankfully, she took it in stride and thought that this kind of positive bonding sounds like it is a good thing for us. I agree. I talked about the great and busy weekend we had.

I spent a good chunk of the day yesterday updating my OKCupid profile and answering more questions on it. OK, I spent way too much time doing that, since I had answered 300-some questions before yesterday and now I'm up to 1,409 of them. Whee? I also realized that most times I take OKCupid test thingies, I didn't bother to log in. Now that I remember my password, I really ought to retake some of them so that it shows up on my account. I can get back to that, though.

Well... When I first logged in, I noticed that two people had recently viewed my profile. One of the two was my husband. By the time I logged off, I had upwards of 30 views. Yikes! mechanchaos and I continue to have really intense, positive conversations about our thoughts, our feelings, our hopes, our interests and our fears. Even if we never take that next step from talk to practice, these discussions have really been a boon to our relationship. I feel closer and closer to him with each time we cuddle and talk. And these talks are sexy too! I think we've had more consistently excellent sex in the past week that we'd had in a chunk of time previous (which is not to say that we didn't have a nice amount of yummy sex previous, either! :)) These conversations are stimulating me to think more about my thoughts and feelings, to re-examine parts of me that I had let get overgrown with neglect. They give us more frequent opportunities to practice communicating better, listening to one another, and reassuring one another. Good stuff.

It makes me smile that after 9 years married and 10 years being together, we are still learning about one another and growing together. We have had giant ups and downs over the years. We made it past a near-divorce about 3 years into our marriage. And we are still fucking hot together. In fact, I'd be willing to bet that we've been moreso in the past year. :) mechanchaos, I love you. I love going out on the town with you. I love going to movies with you and talking about them afterward. I love watching borrowed Buffy DVDs with you and talking about them. I love sitting in the other chair while you peek at porn. I love it when you dig your nails into my arm while I'm looking at fetish photography. I love our snuggles and cuddling. I love it when you command me. I love it when you dress up. I love sneaking out for lunch once in awhile on Fridays. I love sleeping in with you when we don't have plans. I love it when I spot the mischief in your cheeks. I love it when you smile. I love sharing music with you and dancing around the living room.

Moreover the more we talk and the more I read, the more I think that dating other people wouldn't change these things. ***hugs mechanchaos and kisses him deeply*** I love you, mechanchaos, and I want to say it in a place where anyone who wants to look can see it. :)

Your Score: Linear B

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You are Linear B. Even those who can follow you think you're all Greek to them. Which, after all, is true - Linear B being the first known text for written Greek. To most people, you're incomprehensible. But what do you care? You're tough, hard, long-enduring and have greater nobility than most. Naturally, you don't admit to borrowing extensively from your brother Linear A.

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