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[felicula]

Focus slips, and my eyes settle comfortably into repose. The sharp edges of reality blur, sliding just a couple inches to the left. The aches and itches in my belly seem far enough away not to matter much, while the movement of typing tingles and tickles up my arms. I know with every fiber of my being that taking it slow is a virtue. Indeed, the chemical haze renders caution into an exquisite languor.

This isn't like when I was young, diving into medication with a fury towards myself. Nor is it the sacrament with which some take leave of their senses. For now, it is sanctioned that I might partake of unreality willingly. Certainly, my pains are endurable without this assistance. Yet, within reason and following the rules set by my doctor, I might choose this release, this small comfort.

Like always, I am my own observer.

Comments

[coderlemming.livejournal.com]

Wow, that was an interesting read. Kinda trippy. I sort of felt like I was on vicodin while reading it. Congrats on your operation, and I hope your recovery goes well!

[hbbtrbbtbcnbt.livejournal.com]

Yep, that sounds like vicodin :)

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

I'm pleased that I was coherent enough in my incoherency to express it. The feeling of being drugged is a curious one, especially when it is an odd combination of medicines I am allowed to use and pain that might be manageable without them.

So far, recovery is going as well as anyone could have hoped. I'm glad I have a good medical team and lots of support all around.

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

Whee! :) ***hugs***

mmm..swirlies...

[evilkinggumby.livejournal.com]

lol just remember it is a highly habit forming (read..addictive) drug. :)

Re: mmm..swirlies...

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

I realize that. My post today should show how I feel about that.