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As I was peeking through all the various sentiments about Michael Jackson, one thing occurs to me. His narration of the E.T. vinyl-and-book set was the first time I wondered, "Is that a girl or a guy?" To this day I have a soft spot for androgyny. Not that I think I would have turned out differently had another individual been the one to set the gears in my head a-turning. Just sayin'

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So, I'm back to square one with my relationships. Back to mechanchaos and I needing to figure out whether we're working on things together or separately. I'm hoping we'll truly take the time to work on things together this go-round. I do not think we're ready to dive back into trying to date others without some hefty repair/growth first. It's all too easy to use dating as an escape, and that's not fair to anyone involved. What emotional roller-coasters the past two weeks have been! *grimace* One day at a time, I guess.

rm posted a statement that resonates with me:

"Some days I struggle, and that just has to be okay."

I really needed to read that today. Hopefully I can keep that in mind when I face down more challenging days.