It was very brave of you to do this and I think essential for your spiritual well-being. How old is your son?
"Trying to get my Mom to divulge how she really feels is akin to trying to comb the Valley of the Kings for a hitherto-unknown pharoah's hoard."
I know exactly how you feel and as difficult as it is you might just need to try and accept that it may never happen. Easier said than done I know. It's hard when you know your parents thought/hoped you would be something else. I am personally familiar with that as well. It still makes me sad but I try to remind myself that it isn't my fault they put their own expectations on me. I don't have children so I could be talking out my ass but it seems to me that people should be prepared for their kids to be whatever they end up being instead of pinning particular hopes and dreams on them. Much the same goes for relationships as well.
Anyway, my two cents. It could have gone better but it could have gone much worse and regardless you did the right thing imo. Never sacrifice your happiness or integrity for someone else.
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Date: 2009-02-05 07:28 pm (UTC)"Trying to get my Mom to divulge how she really feels is akin to trying to comb the Valley of the Kings for a hitherto-unknown pharoah's hoard."
I know exactly how you feel and as difficult as it is you might just need to try and accept that it may never happen. Easier said than done I know. It's hard when you know your parents thought/hoped you would be something else. I am personally familiar with that as well. It still makes me sad but I try to remind myself that it isn't my fault they put their own expectations on me. I don't have children so I could be talking out my ass but it seems to me that people should be prepared for their kids to be whatever they end up being instead of pinning particular hopes and dreams on them. Much the same goes for relationships as well.
Anyway, my two cents. It could have gone better but it could have gone much worse and regardless you did the right thing imo. Never sacrifice your happiness or integrity for someone else.
Good luck and hugs.