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[felicula]

Would the massive headache of doom kindly take its leave?

First week of the semester... and I feel like a first semester freshman again. Am I simply getting so hermitlike that adapting to the sensory overload of new people, new teachers, new subjects, and being out of the house is painful? I remember getting tension related and stress related uckies last semester, including headaches of doom. I don't remember it being this overwhelming right at the start, though. Each classroom I sit down in someone is wearing perfume that stings my nose and my eyes. The fluorescent lights aren't friendly to anybody. Never mind the oh-so-fun of our car not starting and traffic jams on Monday. Something about being significantly late to my first precalculus class just doesn't feel like the right start.

I can do this stuff. I can be a decent student. Now if I can only convince my worries, my fears, and my headaches of that too...

Tomorrow I may leave the house significantly earlier than I had Monday. I need to find a good time to leave that will get me there on time. She's the sort of professor who locks the door if folks are late. I hate being late. I would sooner arrive somewhere half an hour early or more just to avoid being late. I don't like the walk of shame, distracting a whole class because of whatever misfortune caused my tardiness.

I let myself fall into a rut over the holidays. I slept in. I stayed in whenever I could manage it. I hid from winter and from the world just to get the rest my body clamored for. I let myself stagnate like it used to. Now it is tougher to get going.

The seasons are on my side, though. As the days get longer, I will feel more awake and alive. Now that the bulk of the snow is clear from the main roads, it should be easier. Perhaps people won't feel compelled to drive at 20mph or less all through the city to their destinations...

It's a crash course in winter driving, for me. Thankfully that hasn't been literal. It is just that much more to learn anew. New classes, new people, new professors, and a whole new set of driving parameters to keep in mind. I thought I knew how long it would take me to get to class in the morning. I was wrong. I need to learn it all over again.

Please, let my headaches go away. It will be difficult to finish homework if I have to spend the bulk of my afternoons curled up on the couch avoiding light, sounds, and smells to make the ouchies fade.