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[felicula]

What's in a birthname?

Ever since I first held that medical record up to the light to try to see the impressions left by the impact of the typewriter, I was convinced that my birthname was either Connor Adrienne or Adrienne Connor. On a whim, I slid my file down from the shelf, exhumed that familiar, aging, yellow sheet, and held it perpendicular to the brightest light in the room. The black marker gave way, revealing the ghosts of my first name.

Connor Adriane

Not much of a difference, I know, but in the search for birthparents a few short letters can mean the difference between a search completed and a search that will remain unfinished. I know. Mine is still unfinished. It may never be finished. The eeriest part was finding this on a subsequent search. So close, yet so unlikely. Then again, what if one of my birthparents reused the name?

I'm crazy. I know it. Grasping at straws and fraying edges. Why do I feel like my search is never over? The search for a culture -- a genetic heritage -- to call my own haunts me like those blackened shadows.

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[keepersrosered.livejournal.com]

Sarah Burton.

Mother: Virginia Burton.


I am here with you.

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

Thank you for that. I wish you a good ceremony tomorrow, wellness, luck, and excellent medical care next week. ***hugs***

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

At this point I'm curious to all ends of existence what exactly they mean by my birthfather was Slavic... That could include Russian, Polish, Czech, Slovak, and in a pinch it could include Baltic and other Eastern European backgrounds. I'm interested in cultures and languages and history, but I have nothing to narrow it down by.