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[felicula]

Between the refreshing cold, the sunny sky, and my re-acknowledged need to get back in shape, I decided to head out for a walk in the snowless, chill still-life of the local landscape. I strapped on those longtime friends of mine, my hiking boots. I remembered that even my cold tolerant skin could use an extra jacket, a hat, and a pair of gloves, and proceeded to remind myself of just why I should be doing this much more often.

With the wave of depression that came after my hysterectomy, I fell back into my habits of emotional eating. I admit, after all that work losing weight last year, I am almost back up to where I was. A week or so ago, I weighed in at 260 lbs. Ouch.

Worse than the weight itself, I can feel the negative effects it is having on my heart and lungs. I can't walk as far or as fast without overdoing it. I feel thick, stiff, and heavy, as if I have a lead vest harnessed around my middle. My derrière and my thighs feel equally weighed down. As much as I enjoy walking, and like the park down the street for walking in, it was hard work. Granted, it's the kind of hard work that I really need to do more often.

Tomorrow evening I intend to go to the Rochester Women's Community Chorus to see how that works out for me. If I am going to be singing, I owe it to myself to work on my lung capacity, my abdominal strength, and my breath support. If for no other reason, this should motivate me to bring a little more motion into my life. I have no desire to be a shapeless stick figure, but I do want to be able to breath deeply enough to hold my own in a song without grabbing way too many catch breaths.

I have a bad habit of obsessing over goals. Granted, that got me from my high of 273 down to 212-ish last year. Still, I don't want to end up right back where I am now next year. I want to strike a healthy, sustainable balance. Wish me luck and perseverance?

Comments

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

Makes sense. My Mom has a friend at work who had a breast reduction for health reasons as well.

[hbbtrbbtbcnbt.livejournal.com]

With my migraines often being caused by neck strain, I will likely be able to get a reduction covered by insurance as well.

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

Do you think you will go that direction with it? ***hugs***

[hbbtrbbtbcnbt.livejournal.com]

It depends on weight loss. If I can get to where I am comfy and can maintain, and am still hefty chested, yes, I would consider it. I was a full C before babies, so that is what I would aim for. Full enough to be there, but not as...overflowing...as I am currently :)

Even now, it sounds good, but having the build I have, it wouldn't look good. I'm not worried about it...there's lots of time to consider it.

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

Definitely reasonable. ***hugs lots*** I think you're nicely proportional as you are, but it's totally understandable if you get to the point where it the benefits would outweigh the drawbacks.

[hbbtrbbtbcnbt.livejournal.com]

I certainly want to keep my proportions...just on an overall smaller scale. That is going to be one of more pressing questions once I get to see the doctor...can I do this without losing my curves? I don't want to be size 6. I just want to be a healthier weight. And still have some dock and balcony!!!

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

If you were a C before Brandon and Dakota were born, I doubt you'd totally lose your curves... Your figure seems similar to mine in that respect. :)