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This... is why I am shaking and crying right now.

I loved her. As a friend. As more than a friend.



I was a fucking bad friend.

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I called Sarah's mom. I called my mom and left a message asking to stay this weekend. I lit an asston of candles and incense.

I lit the red rose candle I had been saving for I-don't-know-what.

I guess I know what... now.

I dug through my rings and found the handfasting ring I had saved over the years. I am wearing it in remembrance of a woman who touched so many lives. She touched my life too, though I had an awful way of showing it.

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I need to admit something. I loved Sarah. I loved her when it hurt to love her, and when I wasn't strong enough to be what she needed. My heart goes out to Nathan who had the strength that I didn't.