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[felicula]

I'd like to thank siegeengine for pointing me toward The Polyamorous Misanthrope. I've been reading on that site for a good chunk of today. Good stuff. Real stuff. Down to earth. Doesn't mince words.

Also interesting how the advice there applies to non-relationship things too. My earlier post about the Rochester Women's Community Chorus? Seems that want is a pretty big one. I spend altogether too much time in my life not singing and not being musical, when being musically inclined was one of my first loves. I've spent too much time as a Stay At Home Mom, forgetting all the bits and bobs that go into making me who I am. I think that singing is one of those things that I am less myself without. I don't think I'd be doing myself or anyone else any favors by not joining. Heck, I'm a wibblebag just thinking about how much I miss singing when I'm not. I want to sing, and I want to know other folks who do too. I want to have fun with it, but I also want to work on regaining some of my range and ability.

Somehow it looks scarier typing it out. A whole organization worth of strangers... I'm never sure if I'm good enough or dedicated enough. But the opportunities: to work as a team, to make music, to have my voice heard, to have the chance to succeed at being musical, maybe even to network with other people who enjoy singing. I think it would be a bad choice to hide from the opportunity. So, then, why do I get so nervous and scared?

Comments

[phoenixsong]

You are most certainly good enough. *hug*

It's always scary walking into something for the first time. But it sounds like you might have company you know and trust going with you, and that could make all the difference. I think you should do it.

Don't make me threaten to beat you up. Besides, I'd lose. s:)

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

***hugs back*** I know I ought to do it. I know I'll regret it if I don't try.

'Sides, if you threaten to beat me up, I might just submit... ;)

[lexelby.livejournal.com]

Ooh, I did a fair amount of reading on that blog, and I liked a lot of what I saw. My favorite so far is the one about Vetoes (http://www.polyamorousmisanthrope.com/2007/03/18/vetos/).

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

That one's definitely a good post. Heck, there's a lot of good stuff in there. I'm sure I'll be doing more reading on it.

[siegeengine.livejournal.com]

aww.. you're welcome! I love that site, too, and the misanthrope herself.
It's just so rare to see someone talk about things like poly without getting all mystical. ;)
not that mysticism is bad... you know... just... well, anyway..
*hugs*

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

That site is wonderfully down-to-earth, practical, experience based, realistic, well-grounded, nitty-gritty... I can think of a lot of words, but it boils down to being helpful stuff. :)

Mysticism is all well and good, but mysticism is a very personal thing, and implies a direct personal experience with what underlies Everything... I realize I'm being overly literal at that, but that's because I consider myself something of a mystic. Being a mystic is valid and fulfilling, but it's difficult to communicate about. :)

By contrast, The Polyamorous Misanthrope communicates well, and in ways that resonate with the human experience in general and polyamory in specific. Good stuff.