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[felicula]

I am liking my busy Tuesdays.

Even though I am getting used to going to RWCC rehearsals, I still feel socially awkward. A lot of members know one another already. Sometimes I talk to people, sometimes I just stand around being glad to be out of the house. The singing is fun and worthwhile. When I do talk to people, the conversations seem to go well. I like those I've talked to. I think I need to realize that wanting to be friendly does not erase my decades of awkwardness. Ah well. I know I'll keep getting practice with that as I keep going to rehearsals.

The ADF study group I am a part of shifted their meeting times since another member and I get out of our other commitments at 9pm. We've been starting to study Welsh. I think, despite my tendency to dabble and not progress past a certain point, that I am something of a language geek. Granted, I am likely many times over a geek of various sorts. Anyhow, the late start makes for late evenings out, but I don't mind that. Sure, I'm tired driving home. It reminds me of when I used to spend evenings up with friends back at Oswego. For as much as I have changed as a person since then, I fondly look back on those memories.

I was supposed to have a therapist appointment today. Even though I was tired and cranky when I woke up, even though the weather was crappy, I got to Unity on time. Ten minutes after I checked in, the people at the front desk said my therapist was running ten minutes late. Mind you, I need to get the car back in time for mechanchaos to leave for work. Once my watch said it was a half hour after my appointment was supposed to start, I went to the front desk to say I needed to leave. As they were refunding my co-pay, she comes in apologetic. I explained the situation and remembered to reschedule before heading out. I can understand getting caught in traffic in crappy weather, but the whole situation makes me wish I'd stayed in bed and canceled from home... Ah well. At the very least, it made me feel more responsible to get there.

I seem to be going through a lazy period. From what I'm reading on my friends list, I get the impression that I'm not the only one feeling tired or unproductive. Here's hoping I can pop open a can of motivation soonish.

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[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

:)

That would be fun! I wish gas wasn't so bloodsuckingly expensive... Cheaper gas would mean more road trips! In the meantime, though, I will give you lots of e-hugs! ***hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs squeezes hugs hugs hugs hugs***

BTW - do you remember someone by the name of Brian Waters in the PSA? He's a part of the ADF study group I'm in. He says he was at Oswego and a PSA member back in the day. He seems familiar, but my memories for people I didn't personally hang out with are spotty at best. He's on lj here as greenmistletoe.

psa

[greenmistletoe.livejournal.com]

i think i was in psa either 1995 or '96
i attended a samhain ritual and i think i remember
someone by the name of mike nickols...

i also remember someone talking about seven rays book store
and a witches' almanac and someone
talking about chaos magick and a woman talking about
ayurveda..... and a guy with long hair leading the group

Re: psa

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

delleni above was another PSA person, Dorene in non-LJ-land. I remember when Scott (I forget his last name.) was PSA president. I remember that, before PSA became the PSA, there was a discussion group about witchcraft over on the far side of campus in one of the dorm lounges. (I lived on Lakeside.) Rob, I think, was the name of the guy into chaos magick. I remember him invoking Loki at one ritual and the rocks below the fire exploding. The faculty moderator, Ray Rodriguez, is now at Iowa State, and has an LJ by the name of witchmystic.

I remember Joe Solar, who was at one point prepping for a vision quest. He did shamanic trance work with a bunch of us at the house where Ray and his wife Justine lived.

And, I will never forget the one open ritual where I oopsed on the order of things, leaving a circle of energy in the Cayuga? lounge. For as embarrassing as it was, it was neat to have people new to paganism enter into where the circle was and exclaim about how the energy tingles. :) It helped reinforce my trust in energy work to see people who had never encountered it before confirm that it was there.

My problem is, I am terrible with names and tend to generalize faces. There are lots of times when people come up to me asking if I remember them and honestly, I don't. You look familiar. Then again, a lot of folks look familiar, sometimes because they resemble other people I've met and sometimes because I really do have a shred of non-degraded memory. Also, I have a bad habit of being terribly shy with people I don't already know. It takes me time to get to know folks to the point where I can let go with that. Kinda ironic, that. I'm a shy ham.

Anyhow, there were periods of time when I'd be busy and not a part of PSA stuff. So there's at least a chance that we wouldn't have crossed paths. That familiarity makes me wonder whether it's all in my head or not. Not certain it's something that can be cleared up for me though. Ah well.