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[felicula]

I am liking my busy Tuesdays.

Even though I am getting used to going to RWCC rehearsals, I still feel socially awkward. A lot of members know one another already. Sometimes I talk to people, sometimes I just stand around being glad to be out of the house. The singing is fun and worthwhile. When I do talk to people, the conversations seem to go well. I like those I've talked to. I think I need to realize that wanting to be friendly does not erase my decades of awkwardness. Ah well. I know I'll keep getting practice with that as I keep going to rehearsals.

The ADF study group I am a part of shifted their meeting times since another member and I get out of our other commitments at 9pm. We've been starting to study Welsh. I think, despite my tendency to dabble and not progress past a certain point, that I am something of a language geek. Granted, I am likely many times over a geek of various sorts. Anyhow, the late start makes for late evenings out, but I don't mind that. Sure, I'm tired driving home. It reminds me of when I used to spend evenings up with friends back at Oswego. For as much as I have changed as a person since then, I fondly look back on those memories.

I was supposed to have a therapist appointment today. Even though I was tired and cranky when I woke up, even though the weather was crappy, I got to Unity on time. Ten minutes after I checked in, the people at the front desk said my therapist was running ten minutes late. Mind you, I need to get the car back in time for mechanchaos to leave for work. Once my watch said it was a half hour after my appointment was supposed to start, I went to the front desk to say I needed to leave. As they were refunding my co-pay, she comes in apologetic. I explained the situation and remembered to reschedule before heading out. I can understand getting caught in traffic in crappy weather, but the whole situation makes me wish I'd stayed in bed and canceled from home... Ah well. At the very least, it made me feel more responsible to get there.

I seem to be going through a lazy period. From what I'm reading on my friends list, I get the impression that I'm not the only one feeling tired or unproductive. Here's hoping I can pop open a can of motivation soonish.

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weather, motivation

[greenmistletoe.livejournal.com]

weather in oswego has been strange lately
it will be nice out for a few days and then
we get a huge snowstorm of about 2 feet!
may spring arrive very soon!

since losing one of my jobs in november
i've been home alot more and this winter weather
makes me feel more like hibernating...
although if the weather is decent, then i will want to
go hiking in the forest :)

...and so my motivation is about 70% right now
compared to the summertime.

i am really enjoying the Adf study group,
...just wish i lived closer
but i forsee me getting my motivation back up to par
as the weather gets better
and hopefully making more money doing something
and then i can buy a toyota or subaru and then begin
to actually enjoy driving again...

blessings to you!

Re: weather, motivation

[blackfelicula.livejournal.com]

It's strange here too, but instead of 2 feet, we get a night of freezing rain, enough melt to turn everything into glassy puddles, a refreeze, then snow on top of that. That way, everything looks nice and pretty-white, but I go to step out of the house and fall flat on my ass. Then, half a week later, it will all melt away again. dawnstar keeps telling me this is normal. I don't think I personally believe in "normal" winters anymore.

I've been an at-home mom since Aidan was born, so I get the feeling of winter hibernation. So easy to just curl up under a blanket and read or vegetate on the computer, or play games... So easy not to get things done like practice Welsh or work on the music for choir...

At least the days are getting longer. That's helping me somewhat. I am always thankful for the growing sun this time of year.

I think it's nice that our meeting time got scootched so that Steve can go to his poetry class, I can go to RWCC rehearsals, and study group can still happen. Tuesdays are my big days out of the house now.

It seems as if money is tight for everyone about now. We were lucky. We got our Subaru Outback second-hand from my folks. I had to learn how to drive stick to use it; but now that I have, I wouldn't give it up for anything. "Family financing" on automobiles can be a damn good deal.

I'd love to scrounge up the motivation to get out and about more despite this bipolar winter. But, yeah, just getting through the week can be tough sometimes.

Do you think you'll be up for the trip in this Tuesday?

Take care and have fun!